New Year's One Day

December 31, 2019

New Year’s One Day is a timed event at Crissy Field in San Francisco. There is a 6-hour, 12-hour, and 24-hour version held on the same day. The objective is to run as many laps as possible around a one-mile loop in the allotted time. I chose to register for the 24-hour event because my strength is in endurance and not raw speed.

The Golden Gate Bridge on a lovely blue clear day.
PC: Peter Delahunt
In ultras, what I lack in talent and experience I can often make up for with thorough research and meticulous planning. I had my eye on the female course record (120.2 miles), and I made a pace chart to achieve this goal. As a rookie to the 24-hour event, there were so many unknowns, particularly how I would mentally handle the repetition of the loops and how my body would break down with the sharp turns.

To add to the uncertainty, two days before the event, I learned that there would be a course change due to construction. What was a rectangular-shaped loop the previous year was going to be altered to include a bridge going through the lagoon and four additional sharp turns. Fortunately, I had time to recalculate my pace chart to account for this change.

Due to construction (labeled in blue), the course (in red) changed from the original rectangular loop to a loop that included four additional turns. The main loop can be completed in the clockwise or counterclockwise direction. The length of the loop increased slightly with the change.
The weather on race day was absolutely beautiful – cool with no wind. It was one of those rare San Francisco winter days when the Golden Gate Bridge is displayed in all its glory unobscured by clouds. I arrived about 1.5 hours before the start of the race. As I was setting up my personal aid station, stocked with my energy drink and food, a lady passing by commented, “Oh wow! This must be the super spouse aid station.”

Excuse me? No, I’m not organizing this aid station for my spouse. I’m setting this up for myself. I’m the athlete, damn it.

But now was not the time to waste my energy on anger. “Thank you!” I said with a quick smile.

The race director, Wendell Doman, called us to the start line at 9 am, and we were off. The first 6 hours passed in a breeze. I was cruising at a 9:24 min/mi pace. My plan was to hold myself back at the easy pace, taking a 2-minute break to eat, stretch, and change direction at the end of each hour. I waved at familiar faces on the course, including Deanna, who ended up winning the 6-hour event, and smiled for the photographer.

Cruising at an easy pace without a care in the world.
PC: Marty Udisches
Peter came with his daughter and dog to cheer me on. After he ran a lap with me, I put him to work to fill my water bottles. I was also excited to see Grace and Matt stop by to see me run a few laps. Marty arrived in the afternoon to crew for me and told me that I was running at a consistent pace. Another Japanese lady, Ayako Murai, was running ahead of me all day, and Marty captured the pivotal moment when I finally caught up with her. Everything was swell, and I was walking on clouds.

The moment when I finally caught up with
the leader. Ayako and I would stay tied for
the lead for the next several hours.
PC: Marty Udisches
In the evening, Stan arrived with his family. Stan and his two daughters each ran a couple of laps with me and updated me on my lap count. He explained to me that his middle school daughter was reaching the age when the boys were starting to get faster than the girls, and she found that really frustrating. He told me that he wanted to show his girls that in ultras, women can be as strong as the men.


Sharing a loop with Monica and Stan as the sun is setting.
PC: Stan Sze
Then as the sun began to set around 5 pm, the wheels started to come off. I could no longer stick to my pace plan, and I was trying desperately to hit 12 min/mi and failing. I was surprised that I was hitting the wall so early in the race. Monica joined me for a few laps and encouraged me to continue taking care of myself and hang on to the pace. My sister, Honoka, also arrived after work and made sure that my bottles were filled.

As my body became overwhelmed with pain, I tried to calculate how much I would have to average in the last 16 hours given that my pace was about 10 min/mi during the first 8 hours. It became clear to me that the possibility of a course record was precipitously falling out of reach. What went wrong? I didn’t know what to make of the muscle and joint pain that hit me so ferociously. I stopped at my chair every third lap to massage my muscles.


Eating soup while wrapped in a bathrobe to keep warm.
PC: Marty Udisches
The night hours wore on, and I decided to check my messages on my phone for inspiration. I only let myself have screen time if I was walking, and I only let myself walk if I was in immense pain. After reading a few messages, I’d get the strength to run at a 12 min/mi pace for a couple of loops. Can I even hit 100 miles?

Honoka returned to the race to crew for me after going out for New Year’s Eve dinner. “Let’s run together,” she said as she lost her jacket. I was surprised that she was willing to run by my side and distract me from the pain.

Around 9 pm, Marty returned with Kevin. They took turns pacing a couple of laps while providing updates on the lap count. I had no idea how many laps I had completed since switching watches when my first watch died. Marty told me my lap count and that I was leading by 2 laps. It was too early in the night to get comfortable. My pace was stagnant, and I was being hunted.

We talked about how beautiful the weather was. “It’s such a bummer that on a perfect day like this, I am not going to be able to break the course record,” I lamented.

“Well, I don’t mean to be rainbows and butterflies,” replied Marty, “but I still think you have the record in you.”


Struggling to hit a 12 min/mi pace all night.
PC: Marty Udisches
Kevin, my pacer from AC100, ran every fourth loop with me while he volunteered at the official race aid station. He reminded me that I am a strong runner and that I have what it takes to recover from the lowest of lows. He encouraged me to keep my pace under 14 min/mi to give myself a fighting chance when I get a second wind. Then, we saw fireworks in the distance marking the new year.

Around 3 am, I was alone again, and I picked up my phone looking for encouragement. I saw a message from Jennifer, who ran the Headlands Hundred last September. “You are doing great, Asuka! Cheering you on from NY!” I found her message to be incredibly moving. Jennifer was a runner who struggled at her first 100-miler, and I happened to be volunteering at the aid station when she arrived at a time of need. Now in my time of despair, Jennifer, who I only met once at her race, was cheering for me in New York, helping me in my time of need. The messages from all my friends far and wide were incredibly motivating.

Honoka returned around 4 am and ran by my side. I told her that I tried to open my thermos for hot water earlier, but I couldn't open it because the lid was broken. When I finished the next lap, she had the hot water ready to make instant soup for me. The lid was not broken. I just lacked the strength to open the lid.

In this event, you only get credit for the distance if you complete a full loop. The completion of 95 loops (100.7 mi) under 22 hours would be a new personal record for me. The excitement of approaching a milestone carried me through the loops. When I finished lap 95, the race director announced over his megaphone matter of factly, “And that’s 100 miles.”

“Thank you so much!” I exclaimed exuberantly as if he gifted me 100 miles. Honoka and I quietly celebrated my 100 mile PR of 20 hours 3 minutes.

Around 6 am, Marty and Stan returned ready to take turns pacing me. It was wonderful to have the company, and I knew that in three more hours, it would all be over. The sunrise over the city was beautiful, and I could make out the skyline emerging behind the Palace of Fine Arts.

The sun rising over the San Francisco skyline.
PC: Marty Udisches
Honoka told me that I still had a chance of getting the second best mileage on the course. Hey that’s not too shabby. Ultra greats like Suzanna Bon and Sarah Lavender Smith grace the top ten list, and it would be amazing to make it on there.

I am an immigrant who has experienced so much struggle. I have a powerful desire to want things more than anyone else. Now go be yo crazy self.

Once I gave me permission to break myself, I no longer felt the pains that were unbearable just moments earlier. Instead I became keenly aware of the muscle groups that were on the verge of cramping - my left calf and the quadriceps above my right knee. I need to make sure these muscle groups do not seize on me.


Running against the clock during the last 1.5 hours.
PC: Marty Udisches
I finished the lap at a 9:23 min/mi pace. I had 88 minutes left to run the clock. Wow. That’s a long time to run at this pace, but hang on as long as you can. I took off my jacket at my aid station and kept going.

I was no longer going to stop to take care of myself. There was no time. I was still carrying an 8-ounce bottle of electrolyte to drink on the go, but no more stopping to grab food, salt, or stretch. This made me nervous. I need to make sure that I was running fast enough to squeeze in the laps but slow enough that I would not lose control of my body.

I finished the next loop under 9 min/mi pace. I took off another layer of clothing and kept going.

Marty said, “We’re doing a lap count down! We’ve spoken to the race director and he says you have 8 more laps to break the course record!”

Wait whaaaat?! The course record is still within grasp? Unbelievable.

I took a moment to check my pace. Then, Stan yelled, “No, don’t waste any effort checking your pace. We’re doing that for you! Just keep running.”

Marty added, “We’re working closely with the race director to know how many laps you need to break course record.”

Don’t listen to them. Keeping your eye on the pace is the only thing preventing those muscle groups from cramping.

When I crossed the finish line, someone
yelled out, "There's that smile!" It felt
so good to be human again.
PC: Marty Udisches
I don’t know why I started to do this but I chose to change direction with every lap: clockwise then counterclockwise, clockwise then counterclockwise, over and over. Maybe it was for a safety thing - I would be making the turns on a different leg each lap. Maybe I just needed a regimented routine as a distraction. At this point it was mentally challenging to keep track of which direction I did last, but forcing myself to remember was just stimulating enough on my brain to stay laser focused.

Stan and Marty started taking zones. Stan was at one side of the long rectangle and Marty was at the other. They continued to cheer me on and shout out the lap countdown.

Honoka was at the finish line ringing a cowbell and asking me if I needed anything from my aid station. “No I don’t need anything,” I told my sister.


Running speed per lap normalized to the average speed of 11:54 min/mi
(7.24 min/km). Errors bars display standard deviation from the mean.
During the hours of darkness, I really struggled to maintain my pace.
Spectators who were crewing for another runner commented, “She’s not going to stop. She’s in the zone.”

I was possessed. I was just racing against the clock. In my mind, there were no longer any more participants on the course. It was just me, the loops, and the clock.

To manage the pain, I was yelling and grunting intermittently. I am so glad small children are no longer on the course.

Runners and spectators continued to cheer me on. Just stay laser focused.

“Why is she running so fast?” a runner asked Ayako and her two friends who were pacing her as I flew by.

Ayako replied, “I don’t know.”

Eventually word got around the loop that the I was chasing the course record. Now everyone was watching me.

“Holy crap. Did we just get lapped?!” I heard a runner ask her buddy who was running alongside her.

I continued running at the blistering pace banking 10-20 seconds in each loop. I knew I had 30 minutes to finish the final 3 loops. This was just enough time that if my muscles did cramp, I could probably still hobble to the finish line and break course record.

I finished another lap. I was in the final two laps now. Confident that I now had the course record in the bag, I just ran my heart out.


Chatting with Ayako about mountain ultras.
PC: Marty Udisches
I crossed the mat, and the race director announced over the megaphone, “One more lap.”

When I made my final way through the promenade I heard through the megaphone, “Four more minutes!” I was elated that I was so close to the finish line.

I crossed the timing mat for the final 114th loop with 2 minutes and 52 seconds to spare. Female course record of 120.8 miles beating the previous best by 0.6 miles.

"I didn't think that I could do it," I told the race director.

"I didn't think you would do it, either," he confirmed. "When you slowed down to 17 min/mi, I just thought, 'She's not going to do it.' Then when you started running 12 min/mi, I thought, 'Well, she's still not going to do it,' but then you started running those loops in 9 minutes, I knew you were going to get it done."

Now that I have done a 24-hour event on a one-mile loop, I think I have the courage to take a stab at the 6-hour and 12-hour events that I was able to observe while I was running. I am also curious to see what distance I can cover in a 24-hour track event where the surface and turns are more forgiving and the challenge of running in the night would not be as palpable.

I couldn’t have done it without all the race support. I am incredibly grateful to Marty, Stan, Honoka, and Kevin. Among the four of them, they covered the hardest hours of the race. I’m also grateful to Peter, Grace, Matt, and Monica who stopped by to cheer me on in person. And a big thank you to all my friends who sent me supportive messages during the 24 hours. It was truly heartwarming to feel the great vibes coming from all around.


First and second overall.
Wendell said that this was the first time he's
seen women take 1-2. On occasion,
a woman will will overall, but not 1-2.
PC: Honoka Eguchi
Distance 120.8 miles (CR)
Overall Place 1/62
Gender Place 1/19
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Self-Reported Splits (Distances measured to the completion of a loop)

6-hour 36 miles
12-hour 65.7 miles
50.9 miles 8:40:20
100.7 miles 20:03:52

Angeles Crest 100

August 3, 2019

I’m not sure when my obsession with Angeles Crest 100 started, but I was enamored by its long history, folklore-epitomized difficulty, and mystique of being in the San Gabriel Mountains. AC100 is a 100-mile (161 km) race with an elevation gain of 21,810 ft (6,648 m) and loss of 26,480 ft (8,071 m). Between training camp in May and a weekend in June, I had seen the course in its entirety. I knew that the course would be tough, challenging my inexperience with heat, altitude, and technical downhills. The hardest section would come in the last 25 miles.

AC100: Wrightwood to Altadena in the San Gabriel Mountains
I spent the week before the race in Boston at an American Heart Association conference. This was not ideal because the days were long, and I didn’t get a chance to take care of my body. I tried to get as much sleep as possible, but I really didn’t have any time to run, stretch, or strength-train.

My return back from the conference was very stressful. The Uber I had called cancelled on me. Then, the second Uber kept circling around SFO because there was construction at the airport, and he kept getting lost. By the time I got home, I had 1 hour to pack for my race before my sister, Amanda, and I headed to SoCal. I haphazardly threw a bunch of things into the car and crossed my fingers that I had everything I needed.

We drove most of the way that night and stayed in a hotel about an hour away from the start line. The next morning, I wanted to sleep in a bit longer, but we had to get to the start line to submit my drop bags in time. I was getting excited about the race. I checked in, got my bib number, and caught up with friends I made at training camp.

Bib pick-up in Wrightwood
PC: Ivan Buzik
I spent the rest of the day writing final notes to my crew, getting ice, and cutting up fruit that I could eat during the race. While putting things in my hydration pack, I realized I forgot to pack extra salt caps. Oh well, I will have to make sure I get them at the aid stations.

The night before the race, I slept intermittently about 4 hours. I thought that the exhaustion from the conference and the stressful trip back would put me into a powerful slumber. Instead I was nervous about the day to come and kept thinking about things I forgot to tell my crew who was flying into LAX that night.
Graham, Amanda, Annalisa, and Cameron at our cabin in Wrightwood
PC: Honoka Eguchi
At 4 am, my sister took me to the start line, we checked in, and waited for the 5 am start. I was just glad that I was toeing the start line without being sick. I ran my last 100-miler with a cold, and I shuddered remembering how I couldn’t breathe or eat during the race.

Starting the race at 5 am in Wrightwood
PC: Honoka Eguchi
Co-race director Gary Hillard started the count-down, and we were off at 5 am. I had a time goal of 27 hours, and my intent was to hike the climbs, especially in the first 25 miles, and run the flats and the descents. I needed to make sure I conserved and felt relaxed until I got to Red Box (mile 60).

Even though the climbs felt calm and relaxed, I was struggling with the running part. My lungs were burning at an altitude of 7,500 ft (2,286 m), and I was not even pushing the pace. I checked into the first aid station 9 miles in, realizing that my time goal of 27 hours was slipping through my fingers.

View from Mt. Baden Powell
The next push was a 3.6 mile to the highest point in the race, Mt. Baden-Powell at 9,300 ft (2,835 m). Again, the climb felt solid but I could feel the thin air getting to me. I knew I had to run the downs at a good pace to make up for hiking the long climbs. As I descended from the highest point in the race, I tripped over a rock. Thankfully, I didn’t fall but I could feel my calf being on the verge of a cramp because I was lacking salt. I forgot to pick up salt caps at the last two aids stations.

A significant portion of the first quarter is on the Pacific Crest Trail
As I continued on the technical downhill, I began to feel light-headed and the lack of oxygen was remarkably apparent. I’m not sure whether I lost consciousness for a split second or simply could not stay focused on the trail, but I tripped over another rock, flew over the single-track, and found myself landing like an X, face-down on the landslide below, clutching the dirt with my hands and teeth so I wouldn’t continue sliding down to the valley below. I tried to push myself up, but both of my calves and my right hamstrings were cramped. At this point in the race (mile 18), the crowds had not thinned out, and the next three runners flipped me over and pulled me up onto the trail.

“Can you get up?”

“My calves and hamstrings are cramped. I can’t get up.”

“Are you lacking salt?”

“Yes.”
Clear skies in the San Gabes
Once I was off the landslide, I regained control of my muscles. One guy gave me a muscle relaxant for the cramping, and another guy gave me two salt caps. Meanwhile, the conga line kept moving behind me with the occasional runner asking if I was ok, and me responding, “Yes, keep going.”

I stood up, and the three men who lifted me from the landslide urged me to slow down. I spent the next few minutes assessing the damage, spitting the dirt out of my mouth, and processing what had just happened. Ok, good. Just superficial abrasions on my left knee, stomach, and my thighs.

Adrenaline was rushing through my veins, but I was tired. Just get to the next aid station and things will turn around.
Coming down Islip Saddle with my torn shirt
PC: Ivan Buzik
I ran into Islip Saddle (mile 26) on a mission. “I need salt!” I told the volunteers. I bummed as many salt caps as I could from this aid station.

In my rush to get in and out of the aid station, I ran past Annalisa and Amanda. I backtracked to the sounds of their voices yelling my name.

“I had a really bad fall.” I showed them the scars on my belly and my knee.

“I’m really struggling with the altitude, and I ran out of salt,” I started crying in frustration.

“Just breathe, and don’t think about the past, just think about this point going forward,” my pacer, Kevin, said.
Putting sunscreen on my dirt-covered face
PC: Amanda Mullins
I was covered head to toe in dirt, and I was so happy to clean up with a wet towel. I ate my smoothie and fruit, put on sunscreen, and got loaded with ice. As I took off, I looked at my watch. Ok, now I’m 45 minutes behind schedule. Let’s shoot for a 28-hour finish.

I made it to the next two aid without any hiccups. Friends from training camp, Felix and Cody, were keeping me in good spirits along the way. I gave Pikachu a high-five before getting to Cloudburst Summit (mile 33).
Heading to Eagle's Roost (mile 28)
PC: Honoka Eguchi
The heat was starting to take a toll on me, and I knew I was pushing the pace on the ~10 mile road section. At Cloudburst, I met Annalisa, Amanda, and Kevin. I put on my trail shoes here and loaded up with more ice. I knew I was spending too much time at the aid stations, but after the fall at mile 18, I was keenly aware that I needed to take extra time to take care of myself.

Getting ice from Annalisa
PC: Amanda Mullins
On my way to Three Points (mile 38), I heard a lady singing at the top of her lungs, “Can you feel the love tonight?” It was Frannie from training camp coming up behind me in all her glory. Then going through the yellow gate at Glenwood, I saw another friend, Heidi. Approaching Chilao, I ran into Kevin from my training weekend in June. It was fun knowing that I was sharing the miles with friends.

Mt. Hillyer (mile 41) to Chilao (mile 45) was a really tough section with blazing heat over large boulders and many off-shoots disguised as trail. I couldn’t wait to pick up my pacer, Cameron, at Chilao. While I ate my fruits and smoothie at this aid station, Graham made sure I got loaded with ice.

Climbing into Shortcut Saddle
PC: Graham Erwin
The section to Shortcut Saddle (mile 51) was technical at times, but I made it to this aid station with the new 28-hour finish goal still within grasp. Now, my quads were beginning to feel spent, and I realized that I was starting to crash. It was beginning to get really hard to run downhill, and Cameron was starting to get bored with my slowness. I asked him to run ahead of me so that he wouldn’t run into me during my frequent stop-and-go spurts. The sunset was really beautiful as we descended into West Fork.
Sunset from Red Box
PC: Graham Erwin
At Red Box (mile 60), I knew that I had a long night ahead of me, but I was determined to get to the finish line. My quads were shot, and I could barely run. I asked Graham to relay the message to the rest of the crew that I was going to get to Chantry Flat (mile 75) much later than anticipated. I wanted to scrap our original plan and have the crew wait at home, but I felt like we were not communicating. It had been a long day for Graham, and it was reasonable that my suggestions were not clear.

Crawling into Red Box (mile 60)
PC: Graham Erwin
Anna from training camp got me chicken noodle soup and cleaned my wounds from my fall at mile 18. I felt defeated and was regretting my pace earlier in the day that put me in this condition. Cameron offered to continue with me to Chantry, but I needed to get in the right headspace to chase cutoffs the remainder of the race.

I left Red Box with a burning desire to finish, but it started to sink it that I only had 16 hours left to cover 41 miles. Even though my quads were shot, I knew I had to run as much as possible to keep my average pace low. Mallory from training camp told me at the spaghetti dinner the night before that he would be close to the cutoffs on race day. I didn’t register what he was saying at the time, but now I was admiring his tenacity to get on the start line, fully aware of the close calls to come – this feeling that suddenly hit me like a ton of bricks. Do I have what it takes to chase cutoffs?

At mile 62, I threw up everything I had eaten at the previous aid station and more. The nausea hit me most unexpectedly. I kept sipping on my energy drink but every sip made me feel even more nauseous. Maybe I need more salt.

I took two salt caps and washed it down with plain water. At mile 67, I threw up violently again. The nausea was physically draining, and I was in survival mode just trying to get to the next aid station.

At Newcomb (mile 69), I saw a medic who had a melodious voice and calmed my nerves. I told her that I threw up twice, and I can’t seem to get rid of the nausea. I was also concerned about hyponatremia. First, she suggested that I sit, and let my stomach settle a little bit. My oxygen level was 95%. “That’s a bit low, but you’re fine!” she said cheerfully. “You’ve just over-exerted yourself, and that’s why you’re throwing up. Sixty miles is a long way to go!”

Then, she had me eat potatoes slowly and drink some soda. “What happens if I drop here?”

“You don’t want to drop here,” the medic said. Newcomb was a wilderness aid station with no crew access. “If you drop here, you’ll have to wait with me until morning when we close the aid station. You’re fine! Just take a nice stroll to Chantry. It’s all downhill and a short climb into the aid station.”

Five minutes after I had taken my last bite, the medic gave me permission to go. I was at this aid station for 47 minutes. My race was over. I just needed to get to Chantry (mile 75), where I would meet Amanda, Annalisa, and Kevin. I’d get to go home.

The next 6.6 miles was not as pleasant as the medic had made it sound. The beginning of the six-mile descent was steep and technical. I was cursing the medic at Newcomb, but as I traversed the descent, I could see Los Angeles and all the beautiful city lights twinkling below.

LA twinkling in the valley below
I felt like someone recovering from food poisoning – tired, dehydrated, and strained with acid in the esophagus. Even though I was going at a snail’s pace, I was content. I’d be at Chantry eventually, and the suffering would be over. What did this mean for my future racing? Would I be terrified of the AC100 course forever? I admired all the people who passed me and were still running. Go catch that cutoff!

As I made short 0.6 mile climb up Chantry, I knew it would all be over soon. My sister would drive me home on Sunday, and I’d get to sleep in my own bed. I felt comforted by the warm and fuzzies.

“Asuka, is that you?” Kevin asked as I approached the top of the hill.

“Yeah. Sorry it took me forever to get here.”

“It’s ok, we still have time to get you out of the aid station.”

I burst into tears. “I’m not going back out there. I can’t even drink a sip of water without throwing up. There’s no way I can finish this race without fueling.”

Annalisa and Amanda nervously restocked my hydration pack as I argued with Kevin.

“You need to get out there and give it your all. If you don’t put it all out there on the course, you’re going to regret it. You’re going to see that second sunrise, and it’s going to lift your spirits,” Kevin said reassuringly.

“Do you want to change your socks?” Amanda asked.

“I’M NOT GOING BACK OUT THERE!” I screamed in disbelief.

Before the race, I had told my crew and pacers not to let me quit unless I had an injury that was going to have lasting damage to my health or I was throwing up for five consecutive hours. They were now holding me up to these conditions.

“Let’s just go up one mile, and if you are still feeling terrible, you can just walk back down to this aid station,” Kevin said.

“Here’s some soup. Do you want to change your socks?” Annalisa asked.

I drank the soup and changed my socks. In my terrible state of mind, I read the distance to the next aid station wrong. I calculated that there was enough time to meet the next cutoff as long as I went at a 30 min/mi pace. Kevin quickly nodded in agreement without correcting me.

We left Chantry four minutes before the cutoff. I was going to prove to Kevin that he was wrong. My body had shut down, and even if I could make it to the next aid station in time, there was no way that I would be able to keep my average pace below 20 min/mi to finish the race. I had 26 miles left with 6,050 feet of gain and 6,900 feet of loss. I only had 8 hours and 40 min left to cross the finish line. I knew a good deal of the descents would be technical, and the thought of going down those hills scared me.
Elevation profile of Angeles Crest 100
As we climbed, I continued to cry about the terrible decision to leave the last aid station to drop. The next three aid stations would be in the wilderness. “I just need to accept the fact I didn’t train enough. I went out to hard at the beginning, I trashed my quads, and…”

Kevin cut me off, “No, no, no, no, no. You trained enough. You’re going to make it.”

You don’t even know me. How do you know I trained enough?

About 45 minutes after we left Chantry, the sun began to rise. My body started accepting food and water again. I guess circadian rhythms do regulate the digestive system after all.

“Keep your breathing relaxed, and just stay focused on taking care of yourself. Once we get to the top of the hill, you’ll have a long downhill,” Kevin said encouragingly.

I burst into tears again. “I can still climb. It’s the downhills that I can’t do anymore.”

Every step of the descent was painful on my quads and knees, but I knew I had to move if I wanted to make it to the finish line. I whimpered incessantly and cursed whenever I tripped over a rock.

“Just continue to stay relaxed, eat, and drink. Don’t worry about your pace. I’m sure that once we get close to the finish line, you’ll be able to run some 10-min miles,” Kevin said.

What? That’s your plan? I can’t run anymore – can’t you see that?!

I couldn’t believe that I was continuing on in this condition, but I just tried to turn my brain off. Just make it to the next aid station.

The climb to Sam Merrill (mile 90) was hot and punishing. I was able to drink some soda here and got some relief from the heat with ice. One of the volunteers told Kevin that he met the cutoff at a different race by running for 2 days and 3 hours. Wow – how inspiring.

As we got closer to Millard Canyon (mile 96), my body was overheating. The heat made my muscles feel less stiff, though, so I could push the pace a bit more. We had 5 miles left and a little over 1.25 hours before the absolute cutoff. Now that I could smell the finish line, the adrenaline was suppressing the pain, and I had my running legs back.

“I really need to cool down,” I announced as I got to this aid station. “I just need 5 minutes.”

“YOU DON’T HAVE FIVE MINUTES!” a volunteer at the aid station shouted. “Do you want a popsicle?”

As I grabbed the popsicle from her, I insisted, “I can run now. I’m just overheated, and I really need to cool down. Just give me five minutes. I can run. Right, Kevin?”

He nodded nervously.

After my pack, bottle, and buff were filled with ice, another volunteer goaded me on. “Ok, it’s time to go!”

I looked at my watch, and it had only been 3 minutes. “I just need one more minute.”

“30 seconds!” the volunteer responded.

Really? You’re going to cheat me out of 30 seconds right now?

As I took off from this aid station, I noticed that my pack wasn’t jangling with ice. Those volunteers forgot to put ice in my pack! I took a sip of water and noticed it was cold. Oh no, the ice already melted.

The heat radiating from the walls of Millard Canyon was absolutely brutal. I touched my shirt and noticed that all the ice I had put in my sports bra had melted, too. Not even a minute had passed since we left the aid station. I could feel the heat emanating from the dirt trail through the soles of my shoes. Even though I was certain that I could finish when I left the aid station, the heat quickly killed my confidence.

Getting to the home stretch in Loma Alta Park
PC: Honoka Eguchi
The last four miles of trail before entering civilization was long and more technical than I remembered. It wasn’t until I exited the trails and hit the asphalt with one more mile to go that I felt sure I could complete the race. By the time I arrived, many of my training camp friends were already at the finish line for the awards ceremony. I crossed the finish line with 16 minutes to spare. Only two more people finished before the absolute cutoff.

Getting to the finish line 16 minutes before the cutoff
PC: Ivan Buzik
I could not have done this crazy race without my crew, Honoka, Annalisa, Amanda, and Graham as well as my pacers, Cameron and Kevin. Through all the whimpering, crying, and complaining of the heat, Kevin maintained his patience and kept me focused on staying relaxed and not falling on my face. I will never know why he believed in me even after I was fully convinced that my body had shut down at Chantry.
My training camp friends at the finish line
PC: Honoka Eguchi
At the awards ceremony, they presented plaques and buckles backwards from dead last finisher to first place. As I approached the race directors when they called my name, someone blurted out, “Isn’t that the girl who UltraSignup predicted would win the race?” Damn straight, and I almost finished last, but I finished, even after I thought the race was over at mile 75, and the finish was so much sweeter for it.
AC100 finisher's plaque
PC: Honoka Eguchi
Time 32:43:28
Overall Place 153/155
Gender Place 24/25

Rio Del Lago

November 3, 2018

Seven days before Rio Del Lago, I noticed I had an itchy throat. Hopefully, it’s just allergies, I thought, and took a Zyrtec. The scratchy throat did not go away, and I was certain I had caught the dreaded cold a week before the big race. At first, the symptoms were mild, but then 3 days in, my cold symptoms began to get worse with muscle fatigue and all. of. the. mucous. It gets worse before it gets better, right?

When I lined up at the start line, I was very stuffy and had an incessant cough, but the muscle fatigue was gone. Just be grateful that you’re not a weakling, I told myself. Sure, I can’t breathe, but once I start running, maybe my sinuses will clear up. After a short race briefing, the countdown to the 5 am start was on, and off we went.

Right before tripping at mile 20
The first 10 miles are all paved bike path and gravel. I planned on sticking to a 10 min/mi pace, which felt agonizing slow on fresh legs. As I saw about one hundred runners zoom past me, I was very jealous of how much fun they were having. I want to run and have fun, too! But with my lingering cold symptoms and my lack of experience in running a race this long, I knew I had to hold myself back. Because talking put me into a coughing frenzy, I couldn’t even chat with the other runners. As I slowly trotted along, I gnawed on the ham and avocado sandwich I packed for the morning.

As we looped around Lake Natoma, we started to hit the trails, running along the bluffs overlooking the lake. It was still dark at this point, and I had be careful over the uneven footing on the trail. I tried to maintain a similar effort for this section, so slowed my pace. Around mile 13, the sun began to rise, and it was nice to be able to see the scenery around us. My cough got annoyingly persistent, so I started taking some cough drops. I couldn’t wait to see my sister, Honoka, at mile 18, the first aid station. I was starting to get bored, and it was nice to have something to look forward to. I had no idea what the aid station would look like and how difficult it would be to find her, but she spotted me right away. I stocked up on fluids and gels, and off I went.

At mile 20, in my typical clumsy fashion, I tripped over a small rock. I slowly baseball dived into the trail, grazing my forearm, knee, and thigh. Embarrassed that I tripped over smooth trail, I quickly got up and kept moving forward. I have no idea if anyone saw me fall. I don’t think I’m even bleeding. I slid into the ground ever so slowly. I glanced at my palm and my arm right above the elbow. I’m bleeding.

I knew an aid station was coming up at mile 23 and my friend, Marty, would be waiting for me there. I saw a bathroom preceding the aid station and rushed to the sink to remove all the dirt out of my freshly grazed skin. I did a quick assessment, and saw that I needed to clean three spots. I tried to raise my knee into the sink, but I was too short to push my knee closer to the faucet. In haste, I threw a bunch of water onto my knee, then exited the bathroom in a hurry. Another lady was trying to get in as I was going out. I apologized. I made a mess in the sink.

As I approached the aid station, Marty called out my name. I told him that I was bleeding in just a few spots because I fell. He wiped the dirt out of my wounds and put some antibiotic ointment over the spots. Just a week before, when Marty offered to come to this aid station, I thought it was absolutely nuts for him to drive from the Peninsula to Granite Bay just to see me for five minutes or less. Now I was so grateful that he was there to clean up my wounds.

Granite Bay (mile 23)
Feeling energized by all the support, I headed toward the next aid station, Rattlesnake (mile 35). Along the way, I met Jennifer, a local who participates in RDL every year. Usually, she volunteers or paces, but this year, she was running it. She gave me a lot of advice about running my first hundred, and it was nice to be taking in some last minute tips. While we were talking, the runner in front of us asked if we veered off course. Uncertain, the three of us started back-tracking, and we found the course markings where we missed a turn. We had not strayed but a tenth of a mile.

Once we were on the right track, I suddenly found myself in a conga line on the single-track trail. At first, we were moving at a reasonable pace, but as the miles tacked on, I felt like the 15-person conga line was moving slower and slower. I was getting frustrated but was afraid to pass the leaders of the line. One girl lost her patience and was zooming past the conga line, almost falling when she reached the front of the line. Even though I wanted to do the same, I convinced myself that I was not well, and there’s a huge chance that I will blow up late in the race. And when I blow up, all these people in the conga line will laugh at me.

With pacer Cameron
At Horseshoe Bar aid station (mile 32), I just picked up some ice then split off from the pack of runners. At last, I was free! I could run my own pace and have fun running! I felt like I was patient long enough, and I could let myself run as my heart desired. But don’t go out like caged animal. The next aid station where I’d see my friends, Graham and Cameron, was just three miles away. When I arrived, I heard my name and found my crew had laid out everything in my drop bag in plain sight so I could pick up what I needed. It was starting to get really warm, so I made sure to carry ice in my buff and my bra to keep my core cool. “What place am I in?” I asked. They weren’t sure, so I asked them to check and tell me at Overlook. They quickly restocked my pack, and I was on my way along the American River.

Coming up to Overlook (mile 44) with Nate
I was really looking forward to getting to Overlook (mile 44), where I would pick up a pacer. I knew Cardiac Hill into this aid station would be a long three mile climb, but this section went by very quickly because another runner, Nate, kept me company. He was raised in Wisconsin and lived in Minnesota, so it was fun to chat about all things Midwest. I could tell he really looked up to his grandfather and the research he had done.

So happy to see crew
Graham, Cameron, Honoka, and my pacer, Bill, greeted me at Overlook. I was elated to see them and sat down to put on some fresh socks. “You’re in fifth place,” they told me. As I reached over to put my shoes back on, my abs cramped. That’s uncomfortable. The cramp lasted no more than a few seconds, and it was a reminder that I should take some salt. I tried to eat off the table since I knew I would get sick of gels later in the evening. The oranges looked good. I should pack more fruit next time.

I was happy to be back on the trail again, and while there would be a long ways to go, I thought it would be easier with pacers. My first pacer was Bill, who I met at the Avalon 50 in January. He was super chatty and made the miles go by very quickly. Once we crossed No Hands Bridge (mile 48), the race started to thin out. The heat was really getting to me, and I started to get sick of drinking the Roctane drink mix. I was trying to get half my calories from fluids and half my calories from gels, but I could feel the nausea starting to creep in.

Cameron, Honoka, me, Bill, and Graham
As we made our way to Auburn Lake Trails (mile 59), I kept brushing my forearm that was bleeding earlier in the day against the branches that poked into the path. Every once in a while, I would shout out in pain, and I hope I didn’t startle my pacer too much. At one point, I was startled by some loud rustling in the woods, and Bill noticed me staring into the forest. “All the sounds you hear today are from squirrels and cute bunnies,” he assured.

A blister on my pinky toe and a bruise on the top of my foot started to take a toll on me. We stopped on the side of the trail in an attempt to address the foot problems. Wrapping the blister only intensified the pressure, though, and I immediately had to take pad off my blister. On the plus side, sitting for a brief moment did magic to my quads. It was like I had new legs and could run again without taking frequent walk breaks. What a great discovery! It helped me power hike through Goat Hill, a short but steep section of the course.

Around mile 64, the sun began to set, and the sky turned a glorious hue of deep oranges and reds. The sky was on fire.


A while after it got dark, we caught up with Brady who was running sans headlamp. I was impressed with how he got through all the uneven footing without a light. We stuck together to No Hands Bridge (mile 70) so he could see the trail better between our headlamps. It seemed to take forever to get to the Highway 49 aid station (mile 67), but then the excitement of getting to No Hands and closing the hilly lollipop of the course made the time go by more quickly.

At No Hands, I picked up Cameron, my second pacer. I was surprised to see Calvin, my third pacer at this aid station, too. “You’re in fourth place,” they told me. I got to this aid station about 40 minutes later than I projected because I didn’t account for all the breaks I would take at the aid stations without crew. As a road runner, I never stop but a few seconds at aid stations, but of course I needed to take longer 10-minute breaks for a race this long! We took the Western States trail up to Overlook. There was more climbing than descending in this section. Only 30 more miles to go. Wait 30 more miles? I don’t even want to run a marathon let alone 30 miles. Don’t think about that. Just get to the next aid station four miles away. I was eager to see Annalisa and Marilyn there. Also, it was thrilling to know that I had surpassed a personal distance record.

Restocking at Overlook (mile 74)
At Overlook (mile 74), I was surprised to meet my entire crew. I was relieved to get into new shoes that were a half size larger than the ones I was wearing. I should have put on these shoes at mile 44. At Overlook earlier in the day, Graham and Cameron got on to me about not eating enough over the 9-mile section from mile 35 to 44. I had only eaten one gel and 3 cough drops. Now I found myself asking my crew if I could get enough calories from the cough drops because the gels and drink mix were really not settling well in my stomach. “The cough drops are maybe 10 calories,” Annalisa said. I hope the broth and orange slices will carry me through the night.

I was overwhelmed with the love and support I had at Overlook aid station. To see my gang of seven supporting me in the race inspired me to keep my eye on the finish line. There is a three mile descent on road and gravel out of this aid station. I was clinging onto this sliver of hope of being able to run this section, and I was ecstatic to find out that my legs could still turn over with good cadence. As we cruised down this hill, we passed the #3 female, who was walking down this section to Cardiac aid station (mile 78). I’m so glad I still have my running legs.

At Cardiac, I sat in a chair and tried to consume more calories. I can only eat broth and orange slices. This is going to get ugly. I told Cameron that I was eating a Jolly Rancher, twice the size of a cough drop. That’s double the number of calories. “There’s a girl who just left this aid station. Go get her!” said one of the volunteers. I assumed they were telling me that I was leap-frogging with the girl who was walking down the hill into the aid station. She seems to be fading, and I still have some running left in me. I can get back in third place. That seems reasonable.

Once we got back on the trail, Cameron clarified my confusion. “You’re already in third place, Asuka.” They were telling you that #2 left the aid station, and you can catch her. Well, I don’t know about that.

A couple miles later, we came upon two headlights moving along the trail. Is that the #2 female? She was walking along a flat smooth section with her pacer, so I was able to maneuver past her. She asked Cameron, “Is she the runner?” I imagined that she had been holding on to the #2 position for most of the race, and it must have been painful to hear Cameron respond, “Yeah, she’s the runner.”

The trek to Rattlesnake aid station (mile 83) seemed to last forever. I was leap-frogging with two other runners and at one point, we weren’t sure if we had missed the aid station. I checked the map off my phone, and we were less than half a mile away. When we got to Rattlesnake, the aid station seemed quiet and empty. I scoped out the parking lot and didn’t see my sister or pacer, Calvin. Where is my crew and pacer? I had my essentials in my drop bag, and I had some broth and orange slices from the table. In my hydration pack, I carried a hard copy of my projected times at the aid stations. The spreadsheet said Rattlesnake at 11:30 pm, and it was 11:32 pm. I hope they didn’t get in a car accident.

Once we were both sufficiently fueled, Cameron and I started discussing the elephant in the room. “Did we get here too early?” Cameron asked.

“I don’t know. I asked them to be here at 11:30 pm, so I don’t think we’re early. I’m not sure what to do,” I replied.

“Well, I’m not going to let you go back out there by yourself.”

“Ok, well, let’s leave them a note on the drop bag, since we don’t have reception here,” I suggested.

Meanwhile, Graham, Marilyn, Honoka, and Calvin were on their way to Rattlesnake. Since I arrived at Overlook 40 minutes past schedule, they decided to leave later for the next aid station. While they were driving, Honoka got a notification from the tracking app that I arrived at Rattlesnake at 11:25 pm. “Did anyone bring the food bag?” Marilyn asked. Realizing they didn’t have crewing supplies, Graham, who was driving, turned the car around back to the hotel. They grabbed the bag, then Graham sped toward the aid station. He ran a red light and drove down the windy road leading to Rattlesnake aid station like he was driving a race car. “Whoa, whoa, whoa. Calm down,” Calvin told the crazy driver.

When Calvin arrived at the aid station, the volunteers immediately asked him if he was looking for the Asian girl who is #2 female. They told him that I had already left. Calvin grabbed my thermos of coffee and sprinted down the trail. Cameron and I had not made it very far, so he caught up with us easily. I was really happy to see him – to know that my crew was ok and that Cameron could be relieved of his pacing duties. “What happened?” I asked Calvin.

“Nothing happened. We were just chatting at the hotel and left a little later because you were behind schedule. Do you want some coffee?”

When I learned that the volunteers told Calvin that I had already left the aid station, I asked him how they knew to tell him that. “How did they know that you were my pacer?”

“I don’t know. You’re Asian, and I’m Asian, so I must be your pacer. That’s all I can think of.”

The volunteers must have been eavesdropping on the conversation Cameron and I were having.

The trail crossed paths with a road that led to the parking lot to Rattlesnake aid station. Here, I parted with Cameron. Calvin and I made our way toward Horseshoe aid station (mile 86). I had some broth, an orange slice, and a third of a banana. I braced myself for the technical section called meat grinder. I knew it was coming up, and the worst of it would be only two miles. I prayed that I would have the mental strength to power through that section. I met Calvin about two months earlier when I joined a group run that he led at Mt Tamalpais. Even though I had only met him once, he graciously agreed to pace me for this race. At this point, I could feel all the aches from my quads, ankles, and feet. Calvin barely knows me. I need to be on my best behavior.


Meat grinder did take forever. All the big rocks and uneven footing intensified the pain in my quads and put pressure on the blister I had on my pinky toe. I don’t know how Calvin had the patience to stick with me the entire time because I was going painfully slow. I was afraid that I would fall or get a cramp if I misplaced my foot, so I was being very careful. The course markings were not obvious at every fork, so Calvin ran up ahead and made sure we stayed on the right path. Around mile 89, I sat on a rock for one minute then stretched out my calves. After taking advantage of the trick I learned earlier in the day, I got my running legs back.

When we got to Granite Bay (mile 96), Calvin dumped out most of the drink mix out of my hydration pack to lighten the load. Whoa, my body feels so light with so little in the pack. Home stretch! I was going to make it.

I was excited to be four miles away from the finish, and the excitement carried me for a couple of miles. Around mile 98, my mental state got worse before it got better. Would I still make it under 24 hours? Calvin asked me what time it was. “It’s 2:20 am,” I said. Since day light savings ended around this time, it made it even more challenging to calculate the finish time.

“If it’s 2:20 now, that means it’s 3:20 on Saturday time, so you’re on track for sub 23-hours,” Calvin calculated. Calvin is doing the math all wrong. I only have 40 minutes to finish 2 miles to make it under 24 hours. No point in correcting him now. He’s been so patient with me already.

When we hit the bike path that leads to the finish line, I could see the finish line arch lit up to my left. According to the official RDL map, we were supposed to go through the campground, not the bike path. “Are you sure, this is the right route?”

“Yes. I’m going to tell the group that you’re coming!” Calvin said and took off running. I didn’t even get a chance to tell him about the official race course map. Oh well. I was super stoked to cross the finish line as second female, still with some running legs left in me. Sub-23 hours. Calvin was right.

With pacer Calvin
I feel super lucky for how the race played out. Even though I was stuffy with the cold, I was able to survive the race without much of a hitch. I got nauseous but didn’t throw up, and I remained reasonably coherent to the end. I didn’t hallucinate or get mauled by a bear. Life is good.

I could not have done it without my pacers Bill, Cameron, and Calvin. I am so grateful to my crew, Honoka, Marty, Graham, Annalisa, and Marilyn, who gave me the strength to stay focused to the very end. Knowing that they sacrificed their entire weekend to support me was truly inspirational.


Time 22:41:41
Overall Place 39/251
Gender Place 2/80